sukha dukha

I miss you and adore you. It’s been so long since I’ve had a loving woman friend in my life - in close proximity- in the ways in which we used to share even in moments. I miss that dearly. I am learning so much, many human experiences in my life and of these relationships I have chosen in lifting people up and moving them on from one place to the next and being alone…not only by choice but by the nature of my own energy and being a point of completion, cutting, rebirth to so many. I find myself wild, calm, but unsteady wrapped up in others desires…and today, I peeled off that lens. I know I’m here to transform not only internally but move people form place to place, healer, helper, speaker, but I think I need a hand, I’ve been sad and I’ve been down with the weight and desire I have been wrapped up in….pleasing others…